Feeling sad :o(

I am feeling sad today, I have to take one of my chickens to the vet later as she has peritonitis. Basically she's misfiring and her eggs are going into her abdomen instead of coming out. She seems ok in herself at the moment and I'm hoping he can give her a hormone jab to stop her laying any more eggs, which will give her 'mechanics' a chance to sort themselves out, maybe wishful thinking? I know there are some people out there who think huh? its just a chicken, but Layla is also a pet, so its hard being rational when you are emotionally attached. She's been such a wonderful bird and was the first of my chooks to ever lay an egg for me so I will miss her if the vet says 'times up', but I don't want her to suffer either. My sadness has also been added to by the fact that I realised that it would have been my dad's birthday today, he passed on 14 yrs ago and I dont normally feel like this but the chicken thing has well and truly set me off! fingers crossed the vet will be able to do something helpful.
I am now going to go and buy some jaffa cakes! they usually do the trick to cheer me up :o)

Edit - back from the vet & not the best news, it would now seem that she has a huge growth/tumour in her oviduct and has put on a kilo in weight in the last 2 months which is lot considering her usual body weight is only 2 kilos !! have lots of drugs to give her but we have to see how things go. She is such a happy chicken though so its nice knowing that she's not that aware of what is happening to her.